Reclaiming Spoons, without grace.

My secret isn’t all that well kept of one, since anyone who has been reading my writing for any amount of time can name it: I have depression, with a side helping of anxiety. For the longest, longest time, I thought it was the other way ‘round. Treatment has given me clarity.

You know what? No.

This was originally going to be a bullet-pointed ‘here’s how things are going at our place’ list, with shrine photos and Corbie photos and nice, relaxing, “this is what I love about life right now.” But instead, it’s going to be rant. An angry rant. A “Jolene should know better than to rant while angry”…

Mental Health Diaries?

(I’ve been told before, more than a few times, that my discussing my mental health journey/experiences/crap/whatever, has been helpful for others. It costs me nothing to do, helps me think some things through, and allows me the opportunity to never let suicidal ideation sneak in tricky and secret-like. [To be clear: there is no suicidal…

Writing Check-in

  For those of you not following my FB or my Patreon campaign: I’ve made some changes to my Patreon campaign that will go live April 1st. A few things prompted these changes, but primarily it’s been burnout. I started producing four to five thousand words of content monthly in 2014, and it’s been awesome…

Secret confessions, secret worries.

The first is a secret that didn’t start out as a secret, so much as it was something I didn’t want to write about and has since taken on the weight of a secret: On Corbie J. Day, not even half an hour before I had to go to work, with less than 3 hours…

Ten.

Celebrate with us!

Well, hello, Beloved.

Funny thing happened. I decided that I would mark Matsya’s birthday this coming March. Why Matsya’s birthday? As I touched upon in my last post, partially as a sign of getting over myself already. It’s been over two years since “Hey, maybe also Vishnu?” was dropped on me, and while I’ve converted the shrine I’ve…

    Is this my fate, to deny the face my beloved wears? To resist, to push back? When He first came to me, when He first introduced Himself, I balked at the name He offered. I tell that part of the story a lot, because it amuses me now, the audacity of it. When…

Bring Yourself Before Them

Or: how to do devotion. Though, in truth,this is more ‘a way to do devotion,’ and not ‘the way to do devotion.’ (Honestly, if anyone tries to sell you THE way to do devotion, run, don’t walk, as far and as fast as you can.) When asked what I believe is the single-most crucial step…